how? =(

okay. today is my 1st day of prelim. had GP P1 n P2. plus maths P1.
i went in feeling rather calm n composed, i mean how hard can a paper be? hahahah i guess its jz a consolation or smtg. yes i went hm rite nw, writing this blog feeling worse dan shit. IM SO SCREWED FOR PRELIM. nt a gud starting dfinitely. sigh, how?

was banging on environment topic to come out 4 gp essay, bt end it dint come out at all! spent one whole sunday memorising lik sm MAD PERSON in the hse, cos i mean, its a new topic, why wouldnt they test on tt?
So i was so wrong. so end up w barely a choice n wrote on education. a pretty easy topic, bt nt 4 this qn! ok actually wen i fiz saw it i was quite ok bout it. bt as i wrote......................... hmm. DIE.
the qn was "How effective is your country's edu system in preparing the young people for the future?" hmm. gosh hw to evaluate the effectiveness?????? am i supposed to mention sm v successful person in sg? bt even sm v successful entrepreneurs r sch drop outs. hw to mention? LOL. anw IM SO DEAD LA. how?

okay nw 4 math. hey i was reli liking math wen i practise so CONSCIENTIOUSLY last 2 wks. even tinkin lik perhaps i can be a math teacher nx time or smth! Welwel. who knows, the paper was a killer paper! wel 4 me it is very. n i cant believe wen i reach last qn, i actually gt stuck in integrating y=e^x !!!!! lik OMG, havent i been doin tt? n its a simple qn yet at tt moment i blank outt n im lik.. shit. how?

maybe my studyin capacity has been reached wen i graduate sec4. i feel so demoralised. jc has robbed me of my life. now its stealin my self-esteem! evil huh? ohhh man. maybe i shud jz quit education n perhaps learn to cont my dad's business? haha that'll be funny. how?

okayy enuff 4 my complains. gotta go bathe n study econs. i hope it wont be too bad. n im praying real hard tt i can do my phy paper. im desperate 4 phy. how?

lets say, im desperate 4 all my subj. haha, so how?

tata~!